Random Rant and venting thread for general or specific rage

[Ayingel 24]

i hate being given the run around. on sunday, all of the colour drained from my face (according to robert as i was getting ready for bed) and i about passed out. monday, i attempted going to classes, and failed because i was too dizzy and i came home. i made a doctor's appointment for tuesday and was told to use my new inhaler for my dizziness, shortness of breath after little amounts of physical stress (moving bedding, climbing stairs), and waking up in the middle of the night not being able to breathe. well, today, it wasn't working (i went to bed and woke up dizzy and have been all day). i went back to the doctor's office and explained the situation. during walking, my blood-oxygen level dropped to a 92%, causing the doctor to want to perform more tests. my blood-pressure dropped from lying down (118/70) to sitting (92/some other number), a total drop by 26, and apparently that's bad when you've been sitting for two minutes in between. my blood-pressure went back up (108/72) when i was standing, but it was really weird. i'm now set up for another appointment at the main clinic tomorrow to get some sort of breath test, and i'm on prednizone for two weeks. this really sucks. i've missed all week of school, and since i'm having such vertigo-like (the movie and the actual problem) symptoms, i can't go back to working on the lights for iolanthe. i want my life back.

[Mara 29]

Ugh.. I so hate Rachael Ray... I'm starting a group of people willing to take a hit on her.

[TheUnknown 39]

Damn having two tests and a paper due this week.

[Ayingel 24]

i hate semis and winter. they suck. especially when you can' see the lines in the road. and they cross over into your lane when it's already narrower because of the plows moving the snow...ewoking semi made me negative two feet for my car to get through the lane, and i ended up running into a drift on the corner (luckily there were no cars at the intersection) and getting a bit stuck.

[Chickenman 9]

Why the ewok am I such a ewoking waste? Over the past nearly 17 years, I've accomplished absolutely nothing. Nothing to be proud of. Nothing that I'm good at. Most of my ewoking life has been spent sitting at the computer, loathing myself, while everyone else has been out having lives. Here I am, in my formative years, in the years I'm going to look back on, and I'm ewoking them up. I've allready wasted most of them. I've done nothing save take self-loathing to a level unheard of before. I'm a lazy asshole whose life is going to amount to nothing. I'm an annoying, whiny bith. I can't deal with people. I'm a terrible boyfriend. I'm disgusting. I'm an idiot. I'm unathletic. I don't have a single talent. I'm not funny, and should just stop ewoking trying. All I do is piss people off and push them away. I'm a ewoking waste. If I were to die, it wouldn't ewoking matter. Because I don't ewoking matter.

ewok it, the world would be better off. And so would I.

...

That didn't help.

[Brumak 2]

Eh heheheh....

Pardon my laugh....and pardon me if need be...

But you sound like me three years ago.

You talk about life, and laziness, and lack of motivation...like it's tomorrow's news.

What is so ewoking wrong with sitting at your computer? Lives have been had in digital means.

Everyone has their own calling...their own area of expertise.

It's up to one's self....and ONLY one's self...to figure out that area. Whether it's computers, biology, mathematics, or ewoking rocket science...Only an individual can realize what is right for them.

So what if you think you're an idiot. So what if you think you can't accomplish anything.

Deep down inside I ewoking guarantee that there's a brilliant, self-sacrificing "egotistical" genius that's waiting to be un-earthed.

Screw your insecurities....and screw your doubts. They only get in the way.

Concentrate on what you want, and what is best for you. It's easily overcome once you get the mindset.

And definitely trust me when I say "life is nothing without me."

Everyone that knows you loves you in some way shape or form. Hell...I barely ewoking know you and I already consider you a friend.

Edited April 17, 2007 by Brumak

[Radioactive Isotope 29]

^ what he said. besides, i think you're hystarical, Chicken. and brilliant. let us not forget that Einstein was a C student and he was pretty darn smert. school only reflects what you can regurgitate back to the teachers and is not a measure of true genius. and what's wrong with having computer friends? i think i have more friends online than in RL, and i don't care.

[Ayingel 24]

okay, i know i've been kinda sitting on my ass all day since my surgery, but can i truly be blamed? i'm sorry that my job interviews are today and the businesses aren't open and i didn't have pants until today, but dammit, get off my case. my dad has been pushing me way too hard when i feel like i can do absolutely nothing right now. i'm not allowed to lift more than ten pounds (which means i was barely able to lift my backpack with computer in tow last week). mom understands that, and she knows not to push me too hard about it, other than to suggest something. but no, my dad has no tact. "make sure you do something that will be an accomplishment today." ewok you, okay? i'm fed up with you thinking that i don't accomplish anything. at the moment, being able to exercise and walk for more than a mile is a pretty ewoking big accomplishment. this is why i left for three days last week. and i'm going to do it again this week. and mom understands. she knows why i want to move out. i can't handle being around my dad anymore. he keeps telling me i'm a bum and i don't do anything, and the more he says it, the more i act like it just to piss him off. we can't even handle being around each other when we're upset. we end up screaming, and neither of us really backs down. i'm ready to move out. and his whole "that's never gonna happen" was one of the final blows. that pissed both robert and me off. i'm 18, and whether he likes it or now, i can pretty much do whatever the ewok i want. and my mom is okay with it. she only asked that i wait until i know i don't need to go to the hospital anymore for check ups on my kidneys. and that's a month a way. i mean, yeah, i'm a little scared that i'll lose my dad through all of this, but he's bringing it on himself now. i don't know how he's gonna react to robert and me getting married. i'm so glad we didn't tell them that one day. i don't know what it would be like now. i'd be out of here, i know that. i'm just sick of him acting like this to me. and it gets worse when mom's not around. and i'm sick of dealing with it.

[Radioactive Isotope 29]

ah, the joys of parents. *hugs*

[Ayingel 24]

yeah...see why i can't say that to him?

[TheUnknown 39]

Chicken: You are most certainly not an idiot. I've seen your comments during the political discussions. An idiot would not have been able to be so articulate.

Beloved: I feel your pain. My mom, back when she was crazy, was a paranoid, manipulative, shrill, nagging, irresponsible bith.

[Princess 35]

Chicken, I find you funny and witty. You have a great sense of humor.

And PC, I've been there iwth my parents. Sometimes you just have to be blunt and tell them so that they'll backoff

[Uncle Du 22]

People Suck

[Brumak 2]

Aye, that they do

[Mara 29]

People who wait until the last minute to change lanes when the one up ahead is closed suck.

[Andy 60]

lol, yeah. That's why you have to make sure you race alongside them to force them to go behind. :twisted:

Edited April 20, 2007 by Andy

[Mara 29]

Not when the car ahead of me is only a foot away.

I swear, people in Escalades think they own the world.

[Radioactive Isotope 29]

i don't let them over on principle. they can wait in line like everyone else.

[Mara 29]

i don't let them over on principle. they can wait in line like everyone else.

I wasn't trying to let them in. I was moving forward like everyone else.

But to avoid being hit, I had to stop.

Freakin' morons.

Just because they have a blinker on... "Of, of course, I'll let you in..." Even though the lane has been closed for two weeks and there's signs up warning you EVERYWHERE!

Geez.

Edited April 20, 2007 by Mara

[Uncle Du 22]

I swear, people in Escalades think they own the world.

Oh, you didn't get the memo? They do own the world apparently. :p

[Link 3]

This whole mess with the family is getting to me. My sister in law is being a complete and utter mean ass about everything. Now let's start with who she is. She's very spoiled, doesn't care about anyone but herself, and blames my husband for decisions being made. She got so mad at us for getting rid of one of the THREE great danes in the house. Jasmine is super sweet towards humans but she's really aggressive towards other dogs. The night after the accident, the dogs got into a fight and Jasmine almost killed CiCi and now my mother in law has stitches in five places on her hands and can't use them. She tried to break up the dog fight. Walter and I let this dog out with Cleopatra, one of the other danes yesterday and she almost tore her up. It took my husband and me both to pry them apart. We made a decision right then that Jasmine had to go. Sister in law comes out screaming that she already lost her Dad and she wasn't losing her dog, too. She's out every night DRINKNG AND DRIVING and hasn't ha anything to do with those dogs or any animal in this house in years. She's too stuck on herself and spoiled. We already had to get rid of one of the horses, the mustang Missy, and the people that took her wanted Jasmine so we gave her to them. Well, sister comes home last night and all hell breaks loose because we gave "her" dog away. This dog was dumped on my in laws when Walter's biological Dad got her and decided all of a sudden he didn't want her anymore. During the whole funeral process, sister is making jokes and being obnoxious except for a few rare instances when it would hit her that yes, it was in fact her dad laying in the casket. She acts like she's the only one hurting. She hasn't changed in 22 years and now all of a sudden my husband thinks she's going to change because he's going to talk to her. As far as her drinking and driving, the next time she does it, my husband and his mother have already been warned that I am calling the police on her and turning her in. She was hit by a drunk driver the last time we were home in February and she does the same thing??? She's so selfish. I just want to hit her in the face.

Moving on to my husband. I know he's hurting and thinks he has to be the man of the house, but I'm tired of being the shoulder he cries on and then I'm ignored the rest of the time. I said something last night and I told him that I know he's hurting and all, but I need him, too. He can't just put me to the wayside and come back and expect me to just be okay with everything. Like tonight. He promised he would take me out tonight so we could have some us time for the first time in a week. I've been patient, I've kept my mouth shut. Now all of a sudden, Mom needs him again (which she doesn't. She needs to learn to be on her own. We leave next week. She can't depend on him to be there.) and I've been pushed to the side. I AM SO SICK OF THIS. I know I probably sound selfish, but I can't even leave this house. I don't know how to get anywhere. I have no way to keep my sanity except to ride. You can only horseback ride so much.

[Mara 29]

I swear, people in Escalades think they own the world.

Oh, you didn't get the memo? They do own the world apparently.

Apparently.

[Ana 15]

Poor Link *hugs you* it sucks that all of this is going down. But stressful situations don't always bring out the best in people. Hopefully once they recover a bit more they'll get around to appreciating you being there for them. Stay strong hon.

[Chickenman 9]

I'm sorry Link. The family's probably just as stressed as you are, and might not be acting in the best way possible at this time. Best thing to do would probably be to try to wait it out. Keep riding. I hear it's a great way to lose yourself. :)

[Link 3]

That's just the sister in law. She acts like that no matter what. She's been that way since I've known her and personally I think at 22, you should get your crap together and GROW UP.